rodo | (Reply)

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Actually, I can kind of relate to the "OMG what are you doing to my babies" part. I used to feel the same kind of jealousy when people had written about my favourite rare pairings. Sounds stupid in itself, but still. :) It's just this feeling that they're mine, all mine and nobody has the right to touch them, because nobody will know them and love them the way I do.

I don't know where this feeling comes from, and I certainly don't allow it to take over me, but it is always there, hovering in the shadows. That's probably the reason why I subconsciously choose the characters nobody else is interested in. :) That guarantees the jealousy monster to stay quiet and satisfied. The moment a character or a pairing becomes mainstream I start drifting away from them. I no longer feel they're mine. Most times it's one hell of a painful breakup, because I do love these characters and miss them badly. :/

So yeah, I really get the "OMG what are you doing to my babies" part. It's an angsty and a painful thing, and it's very strong. Still, it doesn't excuse hypocrisy. I just don't have any moral right to call someone a thief as long as I give people a reason to call me the same back. You either play by the rules, or you stop calling others out on not doing it.