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2026-05-10 10:04 pmSo, I’m feeling a bit better, but it appears all that stress led to me regulating my emotions so much that I kind of crashed when everything was done and dusted and my brain chemistry just went… weird. I had anxiety like I haven’t had since my teens, and felt kind of like I didn’t really feel anything much because I clamped down on everything, and now it’s slowly coming back in unexpected ways. Hope it’ll get better in summer, once my mother’s cataract surgeries are behind us.
As for work: I now appear to be the person in charge of infrastructure related stuff on the developer side, which is so not my cup of tea, but since I’m the one who has the time to try to figure things out, I’m the one doing it. I hate it, but someone has to do it, and I guess it’ll end up being useful someday.
I’ve got a small holiday between Ascension Day and Pentecost (to maximize my free time per holidays taken). If nothing goes terribly wrong with the first of my mother’s surgeries tomorrow, I’ll visit an old friend I haven’t seen in nearly three(!) years next weekend, so fingers crossed.
In other real life news: I did my taxes for the first time, and it was nerve-racking, but also exciting because I finally get to adult at 40+. It wasn’t mandatory for me, but my mother suggested I do it, and it was kind of exciting to be able to to it anyway, so I did it. I got my preliminary result in the mail yesterday, and it seems my mother had a point.
And last but not least: I started writing my last Fandom 5K story ever. I’m going to miss this exchange so much, since it’s pretty much the only one of its kind that I know of. I’m not confident enough for a 10k minimum yet, and I need a longer writing period and a general theme, so it’s my favorite after Yuletide.
... and now my cat came in to remind me that it's time for bed. Good night, y'all!
As for work: I now appear to be the person in charge of infrastructure related stuff on the developer side, which is so not my cup of tea, but since I’m the one who has the time to try to figure things out, I’m the one doing it. I hate it, but someone has to do it, and I guess it’ll end up being useful someday.
I’ve got a small holiday between Ascension Day and Pentecost (to maximize my free time per holidays taken). If nothing goes terribly wrong with the first of my mother’s surgeries tomorrow, I’ll visit an old friend I haven’t seen in nearly three(!) years next weekend, so fingers crossed.
In other real life news: I did my taxes for the first time, and it was nerve-racking, but also exciting because I finally get to adult at 40+. It wasn’t mandatory for me, but my mother suggested I do it, and it was kind of exciting to be able to to it anyway, so I did it. I got my preliminary result in the mail yesterday, and it seems my mother had a point.
And last but not least: I started writing my last Fandom 5K story ever. I’m going to miss this exchange so much, since it’s pretty much the only one of its kind that I know of. I’m not confident enough for a 10k minimum yet, and I need a longer writing period and a general theme, so it’s my favorite after Yuletide.
... and now my cat came in to remind me that it's time for bed. Good night, y'all!
